just when you think your life is getting good...something comes up and totally destroys it...why can't anything ever be good...not even for a second...you think you've done a good job and then when you turn around, you notice that someone is talking about how bad it sucks...when you think life is gonna get easier, something is thrown in your face....you do something for someone and you dont even get a thanks...you would think you might get one from someone you love...but no...nothing comes....you give and give and give and all you see is take take take...im bitter....me and God arent on good terms...life absolutely sucks....i have never been so miserable in my life....im tired of this...im ready for a change....somewhere that i can finally feel happy....not drug down and held back...this life isnt working for me anymore....my anger is starting to take control of me....my mind is starting to wonder...i want to give up...im ready to take the easy road out....im tired of fighting and looking around and seeing noone beside me....im tired of the same old thing....i see how God is so incredible in some people's lives but see a blank sky in mine....i see God working miricles in other's lives....i see dead tree in mine....i see people happy in their lives....i see nothing but anger and defeat in mine.....giving up is my only option...i have no where else to turn...God wont answer me....why do i keep asking....what's the use...there is none...rock bottom here i come...

this one is about me:

im struggling this summer...

i really miss my friends....

i wonder what Jesus would be thinking if he saw me right now...

my phone just went off and i really dont wanna see who it is....

is it bad if i feel like goin somewhere to hide out for a few days to get away...

do i have a God given tallent....

what am i supposed to do with my life...

why can't i just be happy where i am...

im glad i have friends that ask me how im doin...

im glad that when my best friend left for the summer i had a room mate of his step in and help me with things, that makes me feel good.....

i love it when i get text messages with Bible verses on them....

i wish i had someone to talk about God with me....

everyone that i have to talk about God with me are 40 min. away...

God, thank you for another day....